Prisoner to the Cell

So recently my phone has been bugging out. It glitches and spasms, opens and closes windows, has selective touch screen sensitivity, and bounces the curser around like it's having a seizure.

I brought the phone to the shop, and they said if they restored it to factory settings all should be fine. Only, it wasn't. All was not fine. I got it back, and it just kept doing the same thing.

It's amazing how frustrating this can be. It really tests your patience, and your problem solving skills.

It reminds me that there's almost always an alternative path to a destination. Key word: almost.

It reminds me to pick my battles. Prioritize. Be creative, even resourceful.

It also humbles me. It's easy to be critical of other people's cellphone use and separate myself from "that" crowd. But I'm very much a soldier in that cyber zombie army, like it or not. And until I find the nerve to abandon it, I will continue to be one of them.

I'd love to just shut off. Live my life cell-free. But there's so many things I'd feel left out on. Birthdays, updates, news, life, death, funny memes, the works. Ya a lot of it is nonsense, but it's nice to be in the loop.

I'd be perfectly fine to never take a selfie ever again. Honestly, I swear I would. I've never liked taking them, it feels cringey and self-centred and weird.

I'd also be fine to not be apart of a group chat ever again. Those things give me ridiculous anxiety for reasons I can't quite figure out.

I love the idea of being able to reach out to basically anyone with the touch of a few buttons. But I don't really make use of that feature a whole lot, so what's the point?

I also like Apps. And Youtube. And Instagram. And the calculator function. And Siri.

Actually, I don't like Siri. She never actually does what I ask her to. And she sounds like she has an attitude... but I like her in theory.

Gah, it's such a necessary evil. I guess it's not just evil. There's obviously some good that comes from it. But it feels evil, because it's so consuming and crippling. Crippling because we are so dependant on it we can barely function without it.

Oh what to do. For now, I'm going to buy a newish/used phone on Let Go and prolong my cellphone usage.

I'd be lying to you if I said I'd do anything different.

But ideally one day I will be able to live independent of this brainwashing handheld technology. Hopefully.

That's it for tonight.

AML