Moral Dilemma of Mine

I honestly wish I had the antidote.

The fix to the world's biggest problems.

At least if I could save the world, I could justify and understand my life.

But sometimes I flounder in the burden.

I create meaning anywhere I can, search for it to interpret it and see the bigger plan.

But the truth is, you can't.

I hope there is a grand design. I pray there is a loving God.

I want to trust the forces that be. I trust there is a higher being.

But are they looking out for me?

Obviously that is the paradox of faith. Not doubting what can't be heard or seen.

I'd like to distract myself from thoughts like these.

I'd like to be wrapped in the love of a good hearted person.

Find peace in their affection, and never again feel pain or fear.

But that's not enough to satisfy my desire.

I want the world to be freed, not just me.

I want the world to know love. Know peace.

Be comforted, tears dried and demons erased.

But how do we do it with a world like this?

Where people insist on keeping themselves filthy rich.

Enough money to rule the world.

The greed and folly of their wants,

though all their needs are met, their appetite is never satisfied.

Consuming until there is nothing left.

No matter how many lives they have to trample on.

Endless pawns for their gain.

Call me jaded, but they all seem the same.

Selfish, withholding, consuming, using…

I'm tired of the misdeeds of the selfish elite.